NICU Picnic

This past weekend we took Peanut to the NICU picnic. It's an amazing event. All of the doctors, nurses, hospital staff, NICU graduates, and their families are invited. There are rides, animals, trains, food, you name it.

Peanut had an absolute blast this year. He got to see his NICU "roommates" again. They are all walking and doing so so well. Peanut was born the earliest of them all. He isn't the smallest now (he is probably the tallest, actually!!). He is the last to walk, but we all KNOW he can walk, he's just stubborn. But hey, that's why he's here.

It's amazing is you look around and you see little miracles everywhere. It's amazing to think a lot of these kids went through what Peanut went through, and to see them laughing, running, and having fun.

I can't imagine what it would be like to be a NICU nurse or doctor and to save babies every day. They are such angels. It's such an interesting field to me, but I think it would be incredibly emotionally draining at the same time. Part of me wishes it was my calling, but it clearly isn't :) Kudos to these people that are amazing at what they do.

I feel like I owe them so much. I want to give back in some way. That's something I need to ponder.

Nerves

I'll be 12 dpo tomorrow of our first cycle TTC.

I'm normally a patient, rational person. I'm an engineer for heaven's sake. I think logically. I like data and statistics.

I'd like to ask myself WHY I feel so darn impatient about this. It is statistically unlikely that I'll get pregnant our first cycle. It is not logical to expect that. I have no reason to be impatient. I have an adorable toddler that keeps me insanely busy.

I do not feel pregnant at all. With Peanut, I had one sign - I was sore. I don't feel sore. I'm hoping to be pleasantly surprised tomorrow....

I'm trying to remember what my husband keeps telling me. That this will happen when it's meant to happen and we'll have fun in the mean time. He always know what to say when I need him.

Another story about TAC

I encountered this blog post from a quadruplet mother. She had a TAC put in place by the doctor I am seeing. :) I love success stories!

TAC Surgery
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Weekly Inspiration

As I grow to understand life less and less,
I learn to love it more and more.

Jules Renard

Second Guessing

I suppose this is true with any mom, but I feel like I'm always second guessing myself.

Peanut has been sick most of the last 4.5 months. He didn't have classical symptoms (was gagging and couldn't sleep), but was diagnosed with a sinus infection via CT Scan. He had one long bigass sinus infection. After 3 strong rounds of antibitoics, the last round being 3 weeks long, he finally got better....for a whopping 10 days.

And now he's sick again. Tomorrow will be day 10. He's doing okay but cannot eat much (gags and pukes on table food), won't drink much, and sleeps with Benedryl.

I question myself. Is he just being normal and going through first time exposure to germs needed to build an immune system? Is his reflux contributing to his sinus infection? Is his immune system too weak? I had both a friend and a pediatrician (friend) mention this possibility to me based on his recently chain of events. Should I request a blood test? I mean, hasn't he been stuck enough and had enough tests? Is it a normal preemie thing? An abnormal preemie thing? Not a preemie thing?

I guess it doesn't matter. It's a Peanut thing. But it makes me sad for him. I'm thankful that this is all the bigger issues we have, and I remind myself every day how fortunate we are. I know we'll get through it together.

Waiting

This is totally TMI, but I'm entering my first fertile phase of our first TTC cycle. It's weird to think I could be pregnant this month. Eep! We're both very excited at the possibility and to find out what's in store for us!